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Today is September 13th. This is the 5 month marker since I last had a cigarette.

It was also Friday the 13th on that particular day when I quit.

 And even more so, the day the sirens in our neighborhood went off and the new was telling everyone in our city to take cover because a tornado had been spotted. Katlin was hysterical and crying. I threw her in my closet as I watched hail come down in two different directions and hit the water in the pool like missles. I watched it come down and it sounded like every window in the house was broken. The hail was pelting it and the house became a concert of noises. Hail against the glass windows (I actually had to check to make sure the windows were intact) Katlin crying, the sirens, the wind, the tv loudly telling everyone to take cover. What a night that was.

My car was, well, dented, everywhere. tree limbs were down and the yard looked like it was covered in snow.

But the good part was, I was on my way to not smoking. I was so stressed and freaked out that night. I didnt have time to think about smoking. So that was the last day after being a smoker for about 14 years.

I am turning 32 in a few days and excited about the future of being healthier. Now I just need to get moving more. Although I have given up smoking. I have done the "weight gain" as a result. I am hungry alllll the time. I dont have that wonderful cigarette to supress my appetite anymore.

At least I dont reek of smoke anymore....

Peace Love and Chicken grease

Ugh

Shit. Its almost time. I am so freaking sad. I started a great new job today though.

3 weeks and no work. That sucked. The mortgage business SUCKS right now.

I think I will like it here. And a lovely girl I know works there already. That makes it super.

How many email addresses do you have?  What are they for? 
Submitted by clippedwings.

Entirely too many. I have 6 hotmail accounts. This kept building as you sign up for more stuff, you know VOX, MySpace, and need more space.

1 yahoo, because well you just need 1 I guess, for online chatting with people who dont have a hotmail. And oh yeah, that extra storage. It links in with my Flickr phota account too.

1 Gmail, well because my hotmail was getting flooded. Oh and it links in with my google info.

Ane then, theres my work one. Well thats for um, work? HA!

9 email accounts total. No wonder I dont have any spare time...

Video: What is your favorite children's movie?
Submitted by I-Luv-Eeyore.

The Last Unicorn

Well this sucks. I got laid off today. Dont know what else to say about that. They did say they were going to keep me on until the end of the month, giving me exactly 2 weeks to find a job. So thats cool. But where to go? I am in the mortgage business and if you are abreast on the news. Its declining, rapidly. Mortgage companies are shutting down fastttttt. I hate this business anyways. I think for most people, you either ge really really good at it and love it and make crap loads of money or you get burnt out, struggling to make the extra money to stay afloat.

Dang this sucks. Everything sucks lately. So much crap going on lately.

Have you ever tracked down any of your old high school friends and fellow students? 
Submitted by campsite2007.  

Oh yeah, Funny thing that Myspace. I found a few former schoolmates back from elementary school that I havent seen or talked to in 20 years. I found people from high school that I had lost contact with and ones I didnt really know, but I can see what they look like now and what they are doing. I even found some ex boyfriends.

Wow. How some of them change and some of them are exactly the same after 10 years.

Heres the best story of this question:

The best part was when my boyfriend tracked me down, through one of those high school websites. Classmates I think?? Anywho, he sent me a message and asked if I remembered him and to give him a shout sometime.

Back up....... we did date in high school for a brief time, then lost contact for about 5 years after high school.

So he found me on there, emailed me, we became friends again and hung out for a few years before one night, he professed his undying love and devotion for me and how he had missed me all those years. We have now been dating for 3 years and bought a house together and doing great. We talk about all the high school times and its cool because well we had mutual friends in high school and still do!

So Mother day this year was fantastic. Well its never really not fantastic. It is every year. Of course getting to spend the day with my mom and my daughter making some great gift for me makes it perfect. She always has something she has made for me, which makes much more special than some store bought perfume or movie. I have taught her that it MUST be signed and it MUST be dated. My dad did that to me. And now I understand why. I look back at the stuff i have done and some of it was dated and some not. But I wish I could remember how old I was when I did it, or how old I was in some picture I have.

This year is was one of those boards with ribbon across it you can put pictures on. She thought it would be great for work, frankly so did I. I work quite literally in a closet. Its tiney, but its mine, and it has a door with glass panes so when I shut it, I dont get too claustorphobic and I can decorate it any damn way I want (within reason). I love putting up pictures of her and getting to see her beautiful face everyday.

It kills me that she is growing up so fast. I can remember my dad telling me to quit growing up and how he misses me being little. I thought he was so goofy for saying all that. Why? Sheesh dad, what is the big deal, seriously?

Its all very clear now. As I watch ever Mothers day my gifts evolving from handprints with Mommy scribbled with backwards letters to this creation of a board hand made with fabric and ribbon and in pretty, well skilled handwriting, "Happy Mothers Day"

Ahh, the sweet little angel with giant blue eyes and blond curly locks of hair cooing at me and pointing at things she wants with a slight grunt, to a grown up girl who now talks about boys - alot. No, you never really know until you are a parent, it is truly different. And I would have bet you a million dollars in high school that I would NEVER be a parent. Me? Seriously? The bully, rebel, I'll kick everyones ass and dye my hair black and dont F with me? Nawwwww.

How the world changes. I know I will have many a more Mothers days ahead of me, but I miss the hand printed cards in a way. I do however enjoy the more grown up talks with my daughter, or the fact I can ask her advice on if my outfit may be "dorky" looking. I look forward to the day when I get to be a grand parent and see my little girl celebrate her own mothers day. So Happy Mothers day to all of you mothers out there in the world. And keep every minute with your kids sacred as if it were Mothers day every day.

PL&CG